This Saturday we returned from an extended holiday/parental leave. One of the episodes that really stuck with me was the following exchange with our eldest.
Alina: “Charlie, listen to papa. What did papa say?”
Charlotte (2): “Talking, talking, talking.”
Which, from her perspective, is totally valid. I’m way too verbose for a two year old. Probably way too verbose for most people in my life. I’m going to tune down the -v flag a bit and listen more.
Incidentally, I also broke a toe on the return trip. Which I’ve decided to be really grateful for, because I was about to get back into my habit of running hard
towards [whatever]. It’s slowed me down
quite a bit a lot. And by being forced to be slow, I find myself looking and feeling more.
These are good things.
Talk less. Listen more.
Run less. Look more.
Thrilled to be back at work and looking forward to making this a regular blog thing again.
P.S. Also rewatched all three seasons of Rick and Morty. What what. The third season isn’t as terrible as I thought.
I had real difficulty writing a blog post for the last two days. What I realized that sometimes I'm regurgitating received wisdom that I haven't practiced or even tested. I'd like to stop doing that.
What writing does is force me to think for myself. It's something that both education as well as our models of media consumption don't seem to help.
Part of this introspection has been to challenge deeply held beliefs on who I am and what I do. The acquisitive mindset that is forced on us from an early age makes this hard. Most people I know are driven either by fear or by greed. "If I don't do this, these bad things might happen." "If I do this, I can become better so I can get that."
Letting go of fear and greed is, for me, a gradual process that needs continuous work. Almost everything in society is set up to encourage this acquisitive mindset. "Buy this product so you can feel better." "Read this article so you are better prepared for what is coming."
Well, I'm in open revolt to those values. The incredible freedom bestowed by relinquishing them has allowed me, for the first time in what feels like years, to look at myself and the world with a sort of piercing clarity that is gut-wrenching. But also very liberating.
What emerges is both a feeling of equanimity, but also gratitude and a deep empathy for people and things. I'm going to try and operate more from this place going forward.
The world we inhabit is a product of our perceptions. These perceptions are shaped by our belief systems, whether conscious or unconscious.
I invested in a founder a while ago who is facing possibly the most challenging time right now in the life of his young company. And yet, when he calls me, he is palpably enthusiastic about his response to this challenge. He fully believes it is an incredible opportunity to once again change the trajectory of his company.
I love that energy. No matter what happens, he is learning and growing with the crisis.
On reflection, each moment gives us this opportunity. To decide who we want to be and to meet the world that way.
I’m resolving to live more from this place.